::bgnoise:: Crickets and Frogs
::taste:::::: Cherry Slurpee
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My lungs have staged an all out war on me. I've been coughing up blood spots all day and spotting the tissue when I blow my nose. I'm seriously considering quitting smoking. I'm certainly not ready to quit but it's getting to the point where I just feel so stupid having a smoke. It relaxes me when I need to chill but then again this yoga kick I've been going towards might relax me also. I don't know why I smoke. I just like it.

I once promised my mom I would quit smoking. I never kept my promise because she never kept hers. BUT that's not really an excuse. She had no control over her promise and I have total control over mine. We'll see what happens. If the doc says I've got pneumonia I will quit right there....if not I will still seriously consider it.

::bgnoise:: Crickets and Frogs
::taste:::::: Cherry Coke Slurpee
::mood:::::

So today I dutifully failed my midterm for my cinematography class. Considering that I spent the whole day cramming for it when I coulda been getting some Z's......it kinda bums me out. The thing that really gets me is that I made a shitload of index cards directly from the review paper and I studied them diligently but I still wound up clueless in room 100. Fuck it. I don't really care as long as I get a passing grade. Shit, I need that trip to Hawaii real bad.

I should go smoke a cigarette and go to bed. ERGH look at me I'm still smoking and I have this awful cough. I'm a naughty little asthmatic. My dad thinks I have walking pneumonia but he doesn't realize that I've just smoked my lungs stupid and they are just getting back at me. El sigh...I really better get to bed. It's about 3 in the am and I have work tomorrow morning. I LOVE MY LIFE ^_____^