::bgnoise:: air -=playground love=-
::taste:::::: menthol ciggarette
::mood:::::

so the time is ten til five. i was supposed to leave at three thirty. my cousins boyfriend is from davis and i'm giving him a ride there. he said... he got a late start. i cant express how frustrated i am right now. i thought i would get it out here so i dont kick him in the balls when i see him. so, not only are we gonna hit traffic but we're gonna be mecha late. grrrrrrr. but thats not the reason why im so angry. the reason is because i had class today at three....and if he hadn't told me he was gonna be here at 230-3 i would have been able to go to class. i hate skipping 100 dollar classes. laskdjfla;sjdfasd;jf anyways i better get treading.
~(¬_¬) kori

::bgnoise:: the vapors -=turning japanese=-
::taste:::::: twinkie
::mood:::::

guess what - i found some legwarmers ! some pink and orange ones. i found them at target. i wanted to buy them all !!! so i tried on my eighties costume tonite. i didnt look too eighties. but it'll do. i'm just gonna get pissed drunk and spew all over my costume anyways. i need a cig.
~kori(¬_¬)

::bgnoise:: jason mraz -=the boy's gone=-
::taste:::::: squirt
::mood:::::

WOO ! i found out yesterday that i 'm getting an A in my screenwriting class. tho there's still a problem - i dislike my teacher. yesterday we were having a class discussion and i was looking at the notes that i was taking. he starts talking about something.....explaining something to us and then all of a sudden he says "KORI, LOOK AT ME WHEN IM TALKING TO YOU" eep ! why would he single me out like that. i thought it was quite rude of him. i mean...sorry but i didnt kno he was talking specifically to me. grrr... ASSHOLE ! i will put up with anything he does as long as im getting an A in that class. heh heh



anyways, im pretty psyched cause tomorrow is halloween. halloween has always been my favorite holiday. i'm glad to be spending it with my cuzzies. almost every year since i can remember we have spent halloween together. i'm leaving for santa barbara tomorrow at around 3:00 PM give or take a few hours. ;) i'm slightly apprehensive about being over there tho. i love my cousins and i kno they love me but with all their friends there and colette's boyfriend there i might feel a bit left out. none of my friends are going. they're all going to chico. haha i'm sure it will be fine. i've picked out a little eighties costume. not too elaborate, just something i threw together at the last minute. one of those off the shoulder sweatshirts with a hot pink sports bra underneath...and prolly some jean capris, cause i dont wanna wear lycra. i also found some jelly bracelets. too bad i couldnt find any leg warmers in time. that woulda been rad.
~kori (¬_¬)

::bgnoise:: saves the day -=cars and calories=-
::taste:::::: linguini and clams sauce
::mood:::::

i LOVE the eighties. i've been obsessively watching this show on VH1 called 'i LOVE the eighties strikes back' its so crazy. i stayed at my cuzzie's house until 3 AM watching that show. whoa. its funny cause i could remember even the stuff that came out when i was too young to remember. i like remembering things. you kno why ? cause it reminds me of things that were....things that used to be. all those things seem so long ago. they weren't. i miss the way things used to be. i mean oh yea, change is good, but sometimes i just wish everything could just stay the same for once. nothing is forever, and that makes me sad. it makes me real sad. even when i drive around towns - san bruno, san francisco, daly city, south city, san mateo- everything has changed. shops are different, buildings are different, things are gone. nothing is the same. (well except for 'universal gifts', thats been there since i can remember, but thats another story)
when i think of change i get sad. i don't kno why. i mean, change can be good right ? but....for awhile now change has been a bad thing. change for me is beginning to signify death.
if you think about it somewhat philosophically. (now we're talking about decades) things have changed in seventies to eighties to nineties and so forth.... fads come and go, fashion comes and goes, music comes and goes. BUT eventually it comes back. certain fads come back, certain fashion styles come back, and certain types of music come back. so does that mean eventually things will go back to the way they were before ? i dunno...this is making my brain hurt, kinda like shirley maclaine.
so i went to go see shirley maclaine this weekend. it was nine hours long. don't get me wrong, i dont dislike her, but watching anyone talk for nine hours will make your brain explode. i do have to say that she wasnt that bad. she had a few interesting things to say. she talked about chakras for the first two hours (that was bad) then she talked about quantum physics and reincarnation. i cant remember everything tho. we meditated twice for an hour each. it was kinda weird...cause i think i fell asleep while i was meditating. i had a dream that i was in a forest next to a river. in my dream there were two me-s. nifty huh. there was the regular me and then there was a glowing me. haha i kno that sounds so weird so i will just end at that.
whoa de ja vu

~kori (¬_¬)

FUCK YOU for dropping off the face of the earth when i needed you the most. FUCK YOU for coming back wondering what the hell you did wrong. YOU ARE NOT FORGIVEN--

and the results are in....for sound class at least. I get a frikken B in that class. i HATE getting B's. not saying that its a bad grade or anything, but
1) a B is like saying "you're good, but you ain't great"
2) a B is so very close to an A
3) i've been workin my god forsaken balls off this semester
4) i deserve a fuckin A more than anyone in this goddamn world !
5) I JUST DONT LIKE GETTING B's !!!!!!

anyways, i know this makes me sound like an overachiever. i'm not. i just need this right now. i need straight A's. i need it more than anything right now. i need it so bad that it makes me wanna tear up when i think about getting a stupid sub-par B. the reason why i need straight A's so bad is because when i left school i was failing. this was september when i found out my mom was dying. (its weird how comfortable i am with typing out the word dying) so naturally i'm slacking off in school. i end up failing and dropping out that semester. thats not all tho. the semester before, was almost as bad. i, fortunately passed my classes with C's and a D. NOT GOOD ENOUGH. i went to this school just so that i could do what i wanted to do, and do it well. when i leave this school i want people to know that i did what i did well. THUSLY I CANNOT HAVE A LOW GPA ! i'm really turning into a spaz about grades. i need to get out more.
~ kori (¬_¬)

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